Music

So I have been trying to give up music that is not really, well appropriate.. If that makes sense. It has been a challenge, but I keep flipping threw chanels in hope to find fun music...

Tonight, and every night, I have found myself clicking on a certain album that I just bought. Mormon Tabernacle Choir. Crazy, but it really calms me down and lets me listen to what I am truly feeling and thinking.

One week left of school. I am grateful for the ability to look forward to something that I need. A good friend is coming to visit (ill post pics, since I rarely do) but, I am also looking forward to seeing other dear ones soon.

I know I will find peace and comfort soon. Patience Katie

Today.

Today I am grateful for snow!! I usually hate it, but it has put me in a weird mood... like I am actually excited!! Not that I have anyone to play in it with, but still... maybe soon! I hope, I am tired of this single game. ha

I am also grateful for cell phones and being able to call my Dad and Mom whenever the heck I feel like it, if I am walking up a steep hill, and out of breathe talking super fast, somehow they can still understand me.

I also had an interesting dream, i want it to happen though. Maybe that is why I am happy... cause I dreamt of something that I want... and I can only hope.

life.

im grateful for my family. all you need is love, and they are full of it (usally bs) but today, its love and I am grateful to be wrapped up in it especially when I need to hear it.

Define

What defines us?

Not what we wear, or what how much money we make.

What defines me?

The choices I am making now.

Family

Friends

My Testimony

I am redefining myself.

I have been weak the last few months, and honestly not myself.

What is going to change?

I am going to listen to more uplifting music

Go back to journal writing

Read my Scriptures with a content Heart to Learn

Pray with a humble and submissive heart/mind

It is time for a change

It is right on time

I am bound for the Promised Land. 

I cannot get there alone

We shall see who sticks by my side

No more planning, just living each day to the fullest

Loving deeply, honestly

Forgiving every second

Keeping a prayer in my heart

Every step will be a step for all the sacrifices he has done for me

I would not be who I am

Breathing freely without a weight of guilt

I will have a clear mind and achieve what I have set out to do

Blessing.

Yesterday was a horrible day. It started with an exam, which I know I did not do well on. Second it ended leaving accounting totally lost and confused not know really what to do. It felt as though the closer to the term ending the more excited that I was, but the more freaked out I was of failing all my classes. I had this overwhelming fear over take me. It was like I shut down and did not want to talk to anyone.

What did I do? I called my home teacher. Jon is an amazing man. I went a little earlier, and they were not even done with their choir practice. It was a lot of fun just watching them and their reactions to each others remarks. It also allowed me to prepare for a blessing. What they said, I do not want to say, but I do know that as long as I keep the commandments I will be blessed. I have never felt the Spirit so strong in my life till last night. I felt so humble and great gratitude for the many blessings which I have been able to recieve.

I look forward with an eye to Christ. I will serve him in any way possible that I can. I hope that I can forever remember the blessing that I recieved last night and never forget where I came from and where I am going to go. I love my family and their amazing examples to me.

As my Mom says, roll with the punches kid.

It is time that I go home, it has been too long, and I cannot wait.

hello. i'm trying to explain.

Go outside, kiss the rain. Well, snow is going to be coming soon! I thought that it would actually be here by now, but I guess Colorado still has some tricks up its sleeves!

Cool thing of the day.. I have a new nephew. Even though I say I don't really want kids.. I just say that because I feel my kids will get over shadowed by the millions of them that my family already has.. Mine will be special to me though, and that is actually all that really matters. :) I will love them with everything I got!

Other cool thing... drum roll.. Melanie is coming to visit me!! I am excited! Like, I am truly excited and find myself smirking in my dumb classes at school when I am not listening to the professors talk about their hair dressers, not listening to their wives, being a psychologist, and well doing so much accounting problems.. haha. Funny, she is an accountant.. I have noticed I seem to attract accountant friends.. haha and nurses.. Maybe that is a good thing!

So its no shave November.. Last year I did this, I was extremely grateful for razors and whoever invented them. Uhh, I have not shaved since I would say, mid September?? haha, while playing basketball, they never even noticed! I am blessed with some parts that don't grow hair and the other spots tha do, well it has a light shade of blonde and is thin! Woo, thanks pops for that gene.

I have also been brought to much gratefulness for my family. My burdens always seem so much better after talking with them (Susan is a new sister). She has come in a great time of need and has helped me feel that I do have a friend that truly loves me and cares about my well being. Thanks girl. (ps, she got me addicted to the word dammit. haha. Apparently during the accounting exam my professor heard me say dammit hahaha)

I have been working on forgiving others more easily and trying to just be nice. Oh man, it is a challenging task!! Let me tell ya. At work I have become a total grump in the mornings, and I am trying to be happy at the butt crack of dawn, but I have to admit... it gets to you! Not to mention only getting about 2-4 hours of sleep every night.. haha thats probably why I am falling asleep in Psychy ward. hahaha.

I love my family, I am grateful to have have lessons from them about being grateful, to be more loving and being able to watch how they love their children with such an unconditional love. I cannot wait to be an example to little ones. Hopefully I will be much improved! I know that others love me.

I just have this looming question, how can we always be so forgiving when somethings can be so hurtful? Why keep holding onto things that of course don't seem as important to the other person?

As you grow older the things that you hold high, change. I believe I have changed dramatically. I hold and cherish my family closer to my heart. In class, my professor asked why us we are doing the things that we do. Many students said it is because they want to prove everyone wrong that said they could never achieve what they are actually doing, while I agree... I admitted I am doing it because I want to, I want to feel self-fulfillment, and know that I have the ability to do what I want, without such negative feelings towards others. She nodded, so I think that was approval.

A choice that I will make in the near future will alter things greatly. What will I decide...

Oh what grad school should I apply to, one in warmer states??? That is a yes. haha. but where?